Things change, People change

I’ve learned that things change, people change, and it doesn’t mean you forget the past or try to cover it up;it simply means that you move on and treasure the memories. Letting go doesn’t mean giving up. it means accepting that somethings weren’t meant to be.

 

Sometimes, I feel like couldn’t let the hurt go, I will thinking about it over and over, this makes me tired.

Now, I know that The best thing to do is to forgive. By forgive the one who hurt you, you release yourself from being held captive to the pain, anger,  bitterness, and from being a slave to that situation. Forgiving the other person allows you to move on. In no way does forgiving makes what they did right or  diminishes the wrong of the other. It simply releases you from the pain and anguish associated to the situation. forgiveness
 

I will try to remember the most important part of healing in NOT revenge, NOT seeing the other person hurt, NOT getting an apology, but to get healing for MYSELF so that I can build better relationships and not make the same mistakes again.breaking heart.

Gossips

My name is Gossip. I have no respect for justice. I maim without killing. I break hearts and ruin lives. 

I am cunning, malicious and gather strength with age. The more I am quoted, the more I am believed. 

I flourish at every level of society. My victims are helpless. They cannot protect themselves against me because I have no name and no face. 

To track me down is impossible. The harder you try, the more elusive I become. I am nobody's friend. 

Once I tarnish a reputation, it is never the same. I topple governments and wreck marriages.

I ruin careers and cause sleepless nights, heartaches and indigestion. I spawn suspicion and generate grief. 

I make innocent people cry in their pillows. Even my name hisses. I am called Gossip. Office gossip - shop gossip - party gossip - telephone gossip.

I make headlines and headaches. Remember, before you repeat a story, ask yourself: is it true? Is it fair? Is it necessary? If not, do not repeat it. Keep quiet! 

Great minds discuss ideas, average minds discuss events, shallow mind discuss people.

Fighting with your innerself..

Do you ever pick up the phone and realize you're not suppose to call them anymore? Because they're not expecting to see your name on their cell phones. It's like a battle you have to fight everyday with yourself. What do you do? Things like hiding your phone under your pillow so you won't text or all them? Or maybe replacing their name with some other friends name? Because let's be real, the one thing your cannot do is to delete their number from your contacts. I've tried. Didn't work.

There comes a point when you start to hate them, hate them so much that your mind still thinks about them. I hate to break it to you, my dear, you're not hating them, you're falling for them even harder. Its very much like you want to just throw them out in traffic and then jump in front of some car and risk your own life just to save them.

I'd like to put it in a fairytale story aswell. What do you do when he's your prince charming but you're not his Cinderella? And that freakin' glass slipper doesn't fit. Don't force the slipper to get in your feet, you might even break it. And that'd be the last thing you would want. So, you either decide to wait for the prince to come to you or you run to the castle and get him. Damn! How unrealistic. Only if life worked that way. But sadly, it does not and you're left with the reality which screws you over and over not caring how hurt you are.

The way I see it? Well. I don't know. It is a battle with yourself. And no matter whoever wins. You lose. And you get hurt. And you cry. But *tadaaaa* reality check. Nobody freakin' cares. That's how it is. They see you down, they pick you up, they built you up, take you up on cloud nine, and watch you fall.

The worst part. You're hurt. And they're gone. Now you either keep telling your heart how bad and selfish they were in the first place, which totally works, or you wait. Wait for them to realize. Wait for them to think. Wait for them to come back. I hate to say it, they won't return, they're choosing everyday not to be with you. The soon you accept it the better for you.

What you can do is pray. Prays ever go unheard. They may go unanswered sometimes, maybe because HE knows better than us. Pray that you win the battle. Pray that you start to hate them. Pray that you be happy. Pray for things to get better. Pray for the broken heart and shattered soul. Pray for peace. Pray for love. PRAY, because HE listens.

And then one day you wake up and not have them on your mind. Even if your hear the name or read it somewhere, it won't hit you the way it did. I'm sure you're going to turn the neck, but that's just normal, and you won't feel anything. Nothing at all. The day you feel nothing is the day you start living again.

Sure, there's a gap. And it shall always be there. I suggest you don't try to fill it because the gap shall never be filled. So do yourself a favor. Try to move on.

"As corny and Hallmark-y as this is going to sound, I am just finally understanding that when you choose to let peple into your life, you accept the bad and the good. I guess you've just got to deal with it, because you can't spend the rest of your life being isolated. Just remember that everyone, no matter who they are, manages to leave a mark on your life. They make you who you are. Thank them." -Christina Treco