Still Miss You

For a long time I seldom get together with her. At first I felt very uneasy. Then I felt that I used to it.  I seem to forget her gradually. At least, I seldom feel the worry and care for her. I don’t know whether this choice is reasonable or unwise.Sometimes I will think about her, and the enjoyment and happiness when we get together.It’s a pity that I lose her forever. 

I don't know whether she notices or cares about it. Maybe I am just one of her good friends. The other day Melody said to me that no woman will treat you good without purpose.  So, does she treat me more special than other boys? I am not sure. 

I seem to be not a sensitive guy who notices others’ attitude to me.  I just know clearly that when I am with her my heart is full of joy and happiness. No matter what is the real matter, it’s clear that we are far from each other.

It’s said that persons are like hedgehogs in need of warmness. If we are too far away, we can’t get warmness from each other. If we are too close, the thorns over our body will hurt each other. Therefore, the perfect distance between persons is neither too far way nor too close. We should care for, believe and contain each other, and above all, we should leave each other a personal time and space.

It’s strange how a somewhat amazing day (filled with talks, rumbles, jokes and laughter with her) could end so disappointingly. but right now, it feels somewhat better, for which i’m glad thought about this speedy friendship, about how it had progressed ever since day 1, when i first sat beside her in the library all I know is, our barely two-months neutral friendship can never compete with a 3 years long relationship.

I will take this friendship lightly, I will just enjoy the company, the advices,   the jokes easily. just enjoy and be neutral.  I am a bright guy who knows clearly about my advantages and weakness. But it’s difficult for me to conquer my weakness. Who can help me and who can tell me what I can do? just walk away